My normal after school routine- stress a little over homework, chill a little over friends and music playing, eat some dinner and the hop into the shower. Usually as I hop into the shower I find time to relax and reflect on the events of the day. I think about what I did in modern studies, I think about the boys that I chucked out of the dining room at lunch at prefect duty, I think about things that my friends and I laughed about, I think about teachers that I stopped to talk to in the corridors, I think about dragging the marimba through the music corridor, I think of the first year boys I see every interval who play football out in quad, I think about that pointless talk we had in assembly that morning, I think about the way I nearly trip up going up the stairs to psychology, I think about the way my best friend hugged me that day liked nobody else was there when he came to visit me at interval but..
Tonight..
All I can think of is.
Well.
I think just about him.

And tonight even in the shower as I “wash my cares away” my mind simply cannot slip the thought of him. He’s with me all the way through my ritual shower.

As I rinse my shampoo I think- Why was I such a spoon today? I can’t believe I said “have fun in history” to him when he had physics and we were standing RIGHT outside his physics room, and I was the one that had history.

As I put some conditioner on I think- I liked the shoes he was wearing today.

As I rinse my body wash off – Haha! , he called ashley’s mum a MILF.

As I turn the shower tap off - ashley’s face was actually priceless

As I climb out of the bath tub I think- I liked that hug he gave me today

As I come out the bathroom and walk up the stairs – It’s a shame that he feels hes the third leg around Erin and broon

As I put some clothes on- Though it was funny when he said “I am the third leg” whilst pointing to his crotch.

The most thought that re-occurs the most however is Megan .

Megan isn’t even that pretty……………………..

She’s average really…………………………….

She seems fun.. but doesn’t stand out too much ……………………

She wears the trousers???...................

Don’t get me wrong.. in most ways I love school
However there are those parts of the days where things go bad and I wish I just had the courage to just walk away from school altogether. The things go bad include me failing a test, a bust up with friends, bitchiness between social groups, annoying teachers and arrogant neds. They vary.. and their affects on me also. But the worst?
Seeing Megan in the distance. Then seeing her coming up to goldie with her blonde hair and smily face but plain face at that. At times Goldie plays her only the attention that he would give any other friend but what puzzles me is how he can be attracted to this kind of girl. She’s plain jane all the way!

Don’t think of me as bitchy here but she truly is and what frustrates me is that he could do sooooo much better in many aspects. You would think that people look for something truly unique in a person.. and to be honest, there’s nothing unique about her. She also does not understand him as much as I do! Yes jealousy is striking here but its just frustrating.. even to one of my best friends Jilly who doesn’t see the attraction either. For someone to be your special someone you’d think that firstly they would have to be someone that is special. But I just see supermarket own brand written all over her.